The Good and The Bad

Lets start with the bad news and get it out of the way.... I went in today for my Embryo Transfer (ET) and found out that only one of my babies continued to grow properly. So, instead of being able to transfer two embryos like we planned, we transfered the 1. I have been very sad about my other kiddos not growing properly but Im really trying to keep my head up.

Now for the good news! Im PUPO! (pregnant until proven otherwise) I have my 7 cell embryo snuggling in my uterus right now and that is amazing! I have never had a baby growing in me (that i know of). I already love the little clump of cells! My one embryo that did make it to the proper stage is a 1.5 rating which is really good. (1 being the best) So we have a lot of hope that this one sticks. My only concern now is that blasted hydrosalpinx tube on my left side. I pray that it doesnt harm my embryo.

Well here is my baby and check out my new "PUPO" ticker up top i added for fun. Its funny at this point because it says something about being a clump of cells on their way to my uterus" Cute lol

The dr said its showing early compaction, which is an awesome sign, means something about how the cells are starting to comunicate. Also, they performed assisted hatching. Its basically when they make a slit in the outer shell of the embryo to help it hatch (which will happen in the next few days)

Thank you to everyone that has been supporting me. I am very blessed!

Tomorrow I will be a Mommy!!!

I cant believe it! Tomorrow morning my babies will be growing!!! This will be the first time I can say I have my own babies! I have never had a positive pregnancy test, so I dont even know if conception has ever occured. Those babies are already loved beyond comprehension! Im soooo nervous and excited, that im not even scared of the actual procedure.

So Im pretty excited about all that, but Im also excited for my friend who is also struggling with IF. She will be going to the dr soon and getting a plan for surgery and treatment with injectables! I want so bad for her to get started and have some babies! I have left over medicine that I plan to donate to her if her dr wants to use the same meds and I hope it gives her a miracle baby!!! She has been very supportive to me thru all this, and I appreciate it so much!

Speaking of appreciation, I should say how lucky I am to have SOOO many great people in my life. My parents will do ANYTHING under their power to help me. They want this so bad for me as well. My sister is not only an awesome support but a great shot giver! haha she has done several shots for me  (my brother did do one hehe). I have a loving brother and sister in law who keep me sane thru this. And most of all, I am so lucky to have Bob. He is already is a great dad, and will be wonderful to our baby(ies)!!

ahhh this is really happening....

Almost My Birthday!

I should be so excited about my birthday, but Im just not! I mean I'm kinda excited, but my mind is elsewhere! I am so ready to start my injections and get going on this IVF. Im getting impatient lol.

Here is my schedule they gave me

1/18- last birth control pill
1/20- ivf class
1/21-sign ivf papers and bloodwork
1/22- starting follistim and repronex
1/24- blood work
1/25- blood work
1/26- start ganirelix injections
1/27- blood work, ultrasound
1/29- blood work, ultrasound
1/30- blood work, ultrasound, hcg trigger
2/1- egg retrieval

We plan to do a 6 day transfer. i dont know if that means we will transfer on the 6th or 7th. But I should know if it works by Valentines day! That has to be a good sign! Man I just want this to work, not sure how much more emotions I can handle.

So, wow, that is a lot of doctor appointments. I really hope everything goes well at work and everyone understands. It will only be two weeks of missing some time, so I hope there are no problems. Everyone I work with knows what this means to me.

Im off to make some more bows! I have been selling a decent amount! YAY!

Positive!!!

Attitude that is, not test. I  have decide I am going to try my hardest to stay positive thru this IVF. After my transfer Im going to "assume" that it worked and act like it did, instead of being down and depressed. I have heard a theory if you think positive thoughts and pretend what you want is already happening, it can help it happen. The positive energy couldnt possibly hurt so I figure, why not??

Anyway... HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I am really excited that 2010 is over with and 2011 is here. 2010 was one of the hardest years of my life. From finding I have endometriosis, to multiple surgeries, to finding my left tube is blocked. I want to start this year out with a BFP! I am hoping this year is life changing for me. Just the thought that i could have my very own child (or two!) by the end of the year is making me so nervous and excited! I really have a chance now!

I cant stop wondering what my child(ren) will look like. Would my little girl have my curly red hair? Would my boy look like his daddy? Oh the possibilities! Its really interesting!! And how am I going to choose a name! They will have to live with the name for their entire life, so I want it to be perfect. This is going to be so much fun!

Now what im not looking forward to start of this year, is this week at work. This should be a very busy week for us. We will be entering everyones new insurance cards for the year, which takes extra work. Some of the newer technicians are still learning how, so that can be frustrating. Lots of older people have been waiting for the first of the year so they could fill their prescriptions so they are out of the "donut hole". Its just going to be a long week! But maybe that is a good thing? I would like this week to go by fast! I wanna start my injections already! LOL